Hi.

My name is Alyonka Larionov. 

I am a Host, Producer, Storyteller + Podcaster.

I practice Social Engineering by Creating Community + Gatherings where I facilitate Safe Spaces to Moderate Conversations on Authenticity, Transparency, Empathy, Vulnerability, Compassion, Story/Truth/Flaws, and the Human Condition.

I believe in empowering Emotional Intelligence.

LIVE.IN.LOVE

Counting My Steps | Big F'ng Wins

Counting My Steps | Big F'ng Wins

As I think back on my time in NYC I'm choosing to look at my small steps as BIG fucking wins.

Allow me to explain.
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Small steps, meaning the things I'd usually take for granted or wouldn't consider to think about. Let me walk you through this process:
- recovering quicker after a migraine ✔️
- eating when others aren't eating (cc: @natalianemchinov) ✔️
- walking my many favorites streets + miles of NYC and stopping to feed myself ✔️
- attending my best friends birthday dinner (even though I missed the big one because of my migraine) ✔️
- engaging socially out with friends without drinking ✔️
- staying up until midnight on a Saturday night without dying of sleep (it's not you, it's me - for real this time) ✔️
- sitting through multiple one-on-one conversations without getting dizzy or hazy ✔️
- wearing something that shows a body I'm not particularly pleased with at the moment (body dysmorphia is still strong) because this is ME right now and I like it (I think)✔️
- taking pictures with friends although (see above) ✔️
- laughing without getting a panic attack that my nervous system might be overwhelmed by an added emotional exertion ✔️
- landing back in Detroit without getting a migraine ✔️
- feeling like all of this is enough (major strides in the road of Recovery) even though some may think otherwise ✔️
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I know some of this stuff seems trivial but it's what makes life worth living. Friends, Family, Relationships, Experiences, Travel, Laughter, and as my bff @larmi77 says, "it's called LIVING."
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So this is me saying I'm proud of myself because: SMALL STEPS BIG FUCKING WINS 🙌🏼


*this was originally posted on September 15, 2017.

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