Walking into 2019
For those of you following me since DAY 1 and/or have attended my Workshops, know that I talk about writing like one does about one’s faith. That is, it is religion-like for me. It’s solved a many things in my life. Acted as a meditation. And created pause for a response to form, rather than a reaction. It’s also (always) aided as my most trustworthy guide. After all, it is my intuition and/or connection with (insert here), a pure stream of consciousness without any fear of seeming any other way than ME.
So - when it came to writing out 2019, because I had spent months writing, rehashing and letting go of all my thoughts and happenings (on paper) leading up to the new year, the words came out rather smoothly. Autopilot, even.
My list below on all the things I’ll be working on + out in 2019 (sans editing) straight from my NB.
FINDING THE POSITIVE IN EVERYTHING
yes, even in the not so good.
RECOGNIZING THE SOUL LESSON
as in people which enter into your life, if even for a singular exchange. like X being a much-needed lesson + reminder to Self of my ability to be feminine + nurturing
REMAINING IN GRACE
staying in kindness + love even in the more pressing situations, where all bodily functions point to attack, and yet, grace spills over instead
REMEMBERING TO RELEASE RESENTMENT + HATE
which includes Anger. When stimulated by Else’s anger / resentment / rage / negativity, etc., remind Self that their actions/emotions are their cross to bear, not mine. My path is one where I understand that I can soothe via kindness + love much more quickly and efficiently than I can if I were to reciprocate, mimic, or match their energy.
MIRRORS SHOW THAT WHICH WE MUST WORK ON
that which irritates us in others, irritates us in Self.
FILL THE SOUL CUP
It is all too easy to be washed out by trivial experiences. Less of these. More of Soul-Nurturing ones. My goal is to blossom not wilt. Wilting is far too easy in the realm of the toxic frequency that is people-pleasing,
ATTACHMENTS ARE LOW FREQUENCY
This will prove to be the hardest lesson + something I am not well-versed in. I am in question of how one can remain unattached from family, partnership, especially children.
ACCOUNTABILITY | WHEN HEARTFELT WITH BOUNDARIES
Being Accountable, a trait so lacking in the world these days. This emphasis on “i want it now” “I can, so I will” has rubbled our world into a space of anxiety where one hesitates before relying on another. I want to be accountable. My word is my word. However, boundaries are necessary so as not to Wilt.
BOUNDARIES ARE NECESSARY IN ORDER TO SURVIVE
as this World is one where it asks so much of Self + will take as much as you allow it to..
PLAY THE DUMMY WHEN NECESSARY
Perhaps it would behoove me to play the dummy more frequently. It is not necessary to showcase “wisdom” ie; ego, by debating + retorting to thoughts I do not find agreeable.
SILENCE IS POWER. SOFTNESS IS STRENGTH
Know when to say something + when to Listen. LISTEN, LISTEN, more. As much as I already LISTEN, always remind Self to sprinkle in a bit of softness in your demure. It is a cloaked weapon of strength in a seemingly weak armor. This kind of disposition need not show Weakness. Rather, it leads the less wise astray, opening space for their Ego to Shine as they drown in their false sense of victory, whilst you silently complete your defeat.
ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE TAKEN CARE OF + LOVED