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The Fear of Being / From Jeff Carpenter

The Fear of Being / From Jeff Carpenter

This is Jeff. Jeff found me via a friend. A friend I had met nearly ten years earlier…

While I was a young kid getting started in a new career. Living in Pittsburgh, working for the Pittsburgh Penguins, a Sam discovered a deep-seeded question in me: what if there’s more, in me, and in the world around me. Sam introduced me to the beat writers. He introduced me to Nick Drake. He introduced me to philosophical conversations which didn’t need to have some sort of completion. I was 21. And at 31, a good ten years later, I found myself in New York, hosting a workshop on emotional intelligence with a Jeff who was sent to me by Sam.

Such is life, in that, we never know why we met the people that we meet and how their presence will forever affect us. You see? In some way, the way in which Jeff and I are communicating in this podcast, touching on the question of the fear or being, is parallel to the very questions I was asking Sam. It is, after all, very much all connected. So thank you, Sam. Thank you, Jeff. And thank you Jon Krakauer for asking the very question we discuss in this episode by actually going out and finding your answer.

Music clips used in this episode:

‘Society’ and ‘The Wolf’ from the film Into the Wild

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About jeff.

You can follow him on IG @carpgram.


About this podcast: I created this podcast because i needed to find a way to stay in touch with my friends, social media acquaintances, and life-coaching clients while i built a life for myself in Moscow, Russia. Yes, after 30 years in North America, I relocated back to the place that birthed me.


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How are you? (a simple question) / From Mike O'Day

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