This is a long story, short about the time Zach Leonsis introduced me to Paul Rabil who introduced me to Colin and Samir who met with me in Los Angeles to talk about filmmaking and storytelling, to whom I wrote an email afterwards asking for camera suggestions, after which I bought said camera, during the weeks that Colin and Samir went on a road trip and filmed it, which had me send them an email to thank them for inspiring me to want to create again, only to receive an email that more or less said, you've got to start creating.
They could not know and did not know that I had been creating for years. I kept ALL of my videos private. Insecurity is part of the Eating Disordered mind, and a mind of a human, period. Now that I'm in recovery and don't give an F about what people think, I am not afraid to release the imperfectly perfect into the Universe.
Before accepting Colin + Samir's challenge to create videos, I made this video, explaining why I had always been creating and why they should have known better, although they could't possibly have known better.
Alas, that is the competitor in me.